tonight michael's family made me sing christmas songs with them. they are a bunch of cheezballs.
his parents bought me a few cookbooks (i think they are trying to tell me something?? jk i wanted them) and his sister gave me this super kool pendant thing for a necklacey.  also they gave me a lot of baked goods in order to fatten me up!

i am trying to come up with GOOD resolutions for this new year.  things that will matter/that are actually do-able.  for example, i was going to stop drinking to get drunk and only drink of special occasions.  michael reminded me that this probably will not happen (it's unrealistic, c'mon).  however, going back to bikram for yoga two or three times a week is very do-able (and will get done!).  i want to really *change my life because i feel like it's TIME, y'know??

tomorrow is busy.  i need to buy a new shelf for my room because i am out of space to put things and my dvds are constantly falling over.  i also want to get a case for my laptop and my ipod because i really need to start being a RESPONSIBLE adult and TAKING CARE of myself/my things.

what are your plans for new years? what are your new years resolutions? what'd you get for chrissymas?

 

goin' crazy in your room again

 oh, christmas!!  michael and I did our christmas celebrations yesterday.  he bought me a ton of silly things: a panda bear stuffed animal, a panda neck pillow, complete Planet Earth series, a really antique cool map of the world, some Lady Gaga pins and this really sweet engraved book mark that says, "You're my boo, and I love you!"  he's such a saaaaap i love him.  we watched the first disc of Planet Earth last night, and I think it was the best night we've had in a while.  I love him so fucking much.   even if we are a really crazy Sid & Nancy version of ourselves sometimes.  tonight my family had our annual christmas eve party.  everybody came over and it was pretty nice (honestly) to see everyone. i got a lot of money and that is really really nice because money has been a huge issue lately.  Mike came over and we cuddled and tried to watch Planet Earth but failed and ended up just cuddling and napping and loving each other.  i know this word carries a pretty strong punch, but i do believe that he is my soul mate and i'm not sure why that would make any fucking sense.  but it does.  

break another little bit of my heart now, darling.

love,
your baby shenanigans

 

she slid under the water to hear herself breathe.  under the water she could better control her breathing, slow it down to a steady, constant hum.  she could control the beating of her heart.  she could hear all of the inner-workings of the house and she knew that this old home was tired.  it had been now for many years.  

 

so here is 2009 in pictures, videos, whatever I feel necessary.  Let me just say that the only reason I have time to do this is because I got HIT BY A CAR. 2009, you've rocked my world
( 2009 )

i'm sick again (HOW? i don't know)
i went to the lab to try to run an experiment and i was in the fish room standing and then next i was sitting and i'm not sure what happened in between

FUN STUFF

so i came home instead and cleaned and also baked this monstrosity



c-c-c-c-crack haus

it was alex's birthday and he's leaving tomorrow so we got a keg and pizza and killed zombies





frank + i got to level 8 on nazi zombies.

magnum + good machine gun is a combo that can't be beat

except by ray gun + ray gun

( house that satan built )

and I hope that every time you listen to Fleet Foxes you think of me. and I hope it hurrrrrts hurts hurts

http://fuckyeahtattoos.tumblr.com/

i'm so conflicted about color tattoos.

also conflicted about good looking dudes with questionable tattoos

observe:



okay most of it isn't so bad but the two people kissing in the center, i just really really don't like at all. but then again i hate pretty much every tattoo that has faces in it ever.

frank & bunny at expozine. we were too awkward to talk to people properly so we rambled and mostly drew dumb pictures and also made dead baby jokes.


this is what my bedroom wall looks like

AND YES THAT'S TOTALLY REAL

also my hair used to look like this:


but now i look even moar asian

also my hair has ~*~magickally*~*~ grown like 10 inches overnight

Don't go far off, not even for a day, because --
because -- I don't know how to say it: a day is long
and I will be waiting for you, as in an empty station
when the trains are parked off somewhere else, asleep.

Don't leave me, even for an hour, because
then the little drops of anguish will all run together,
the smoke that roams looking for a home will drift
into me, choking my lost heart.

Oh, may your silhouette never dissolve on the beach;
may your eyelids never flutter into the empty distance.
Don't leave me for a second, my dearest,

because in that moment you'll have gone so far
I'll wander mazily over all the earth, asking,
Will you come back? Will you leave me here, dying?

you are constantly coming and going. just when i think i have found you and you are back again, you leave with the wind and are no where to be found. i want to know what color it is that you're wearing this month, i want to watch you eat chinese food in your all white apartment and i want you to play me to sleep with your gigantic harp. i want to know what you are working on, and i want to share your work with my friends because i am proud of you. i want you to know that i will always be your small whale, even if you do have big muscles now and even if you are too busy to return a phone call. i will still call you and i will still listen to "american pie"